I'm lost

Juz came bek from yam cha . . . SZE HWEI yam cha ?? haha, there is no yam cha in my dictionary. Erm , what can i say - i'm 宅女 , wahaha!! I yam once a while , once a year looooo (*_>) or when my mood is - BAD

I'm confused , i'm in dilemma and i'm lost ! I'm in a real bad bad mood right now , EMO-ING !

Yeah, everytime is my fault , my wrong and yaya me me me , owes me. I'm the one who always create conflict and i'm the one who always say out the word SORRY.

Jus wanna let u know , i'm a gurl , i'm juz a normal gurl like others who also need concern , attention from their loves one. When i'm down , i need care and lurve which mean that we have to adapt to each other n so on- right? Everytime u did something wrong , you wont admit or feel sorry for what u have done. Mayb is not juz only you , this concept apply to every GUYS. You juz ignore , and don't even mention about it . Even thought u know i'm angry or sad , you dun even have the intention to explain or 'TAM' me. The best that you can do is juz let it be and SAID NOTHING - keep QUIET . I hate when someone did something wrong and juz keep quiet and as if there is nothing happen be4. WTF , it makes me more TL.

Sometime i do think , our personality really not similitude. I'm a gurl who need my lurves one to care about me and TAM and tolerate me when i'm angry . I'm dun wish to be the gurl that , u dump aside and said nothing, wait for tomorrow and 4get about what had happen yst . I'm the gurl who accept ppl talk nicely n soft to me , not roughly . You know how i felt when u juz brush off my feeling , u dint even msg or gave me a call or whatever! one word for me , SORENESS ! My heart was like cramp till the max and i juz wanna cry to let myself feel better .

I'm so sorry that i burst it out at here , i jus cant stand it anymore. I do lurve u a lot , but u hurt me a lots too , mayb without ur knowledge ?? It cant deny , u tolerate and lurve me too from what i can feel. Contradictory , from what i see sometime , my notion is that do you really lurve me or...?

Thats y i'm in a dilemma and i'm lost ~ i do appreciate this relationship but now i'm speechless