UTAR - speechless

i fail my MORAL subject in the final semester, i sign up appeal for remarks n repeat as well.

During the 2nd mid term exam , the lecturer had lost my paper n given me 0 marks. i approach her n ask did i need to resit or how i get my marks back? its impossible to give me 0 marks as i sit for the test rite? n she insist that there is no need to resit n she will give the marks by herself or she will inform me later , but no reply from her then.

As my final result release , i was inform that i have fail my MORAL , so i immediately called up the lecturer n seek for advice , what should i do and need her to check what marks she had given me for the paper she had lost. On the 11th of jan 2010 , i went down to kl to consult her , she told me that my overall marks for the course work ( 1st test + 2nd test + assignment) is 51/100 . I ask her , did u include the marks that I've lost my paper? she said yes , she ad include it.

on the 21st of jan 2010 , i got my appeals marks and it stated that there is no material error which means my MORAL still FAIL . So, i ask my friend to check with the accounting officer about the 2nd mid term marks of mine in the administration office , but the officer noted that there is no record in their system , n i have to get the result from my lecturer. Therefore, my dad had written a letter to the DEAN and ask for explanation.

The admin stuff called up n ask my dad n me too meet them up on the 23rd of jan 2010. Yst we drove from around 330 to kl n meet them at 10am sharp. we were invited to a meeting rooms in the 6th floor , the parties included r - MR TUAM KWOK CHOON (head of department), MR NG KEAN KOK (deputy dean) and MISS YAP. ERM....where is the DEAN - DR ong seng fook?????

CONVERSATION ON :
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MR TUAM : So , what we had read from MR FOO letter , n this is the lecturer reply to ur letter.

{MORAL LECTURER} I've given the student 0 marks as she was ABSENT from the TEST!!!!!!

(WT - I was so ............ excused me? i was absent from the test?? OMG , a moral teacher can tell lies too - wow!!)

SZE HWEI : hhmmm, so this is what the lecturer wrote? i was absent from the test on date 23rd? i start to explain , when i find the lecturer and the lecturer still admit that she had lost my paper n give me marks for her mistake. and now she deny that , and noted that i've absent from the test!!!!!!

MR NG: *hehe* so , there is 2 statement now. one is from u and the other is from the lecturer. So, we have to further investigate as we cannot trust only ur side.

MR TUAM: how come u did not sign for the day 23rd in the attendance list?

SZE HWEI: after i've finish the test . i together v my friends approach the lecturer and ask for the attendance list . The lecturer stated that she had lost the list n we need to sign on the next class which is tml 24th. On the 24th the whole class did not attend as we went down to MELAKA for our class trip.

(From what i can c is , both of them r 'pressing' me to the MAX, they keep on ask me quetion that does not make any sense at all!! They want me to admit , i did not attend the test and i bear all things myself. They ask Q such as :)

1- Whn the lecturer give u ur marks - 51/100 , did u wrote it down ? or u jus listen n memorize it? [ erm , i don't got wat u mean? n wat is the point whether i wrote it down or not? does it make any different or any changes? ]

2- maybe u have wrote error in the test paper n u jus grab the paper n throw it n u 4got to pass up the test paper? [omg , what a silly question is this? u thought i'm standard 1? ]

3- or u really absent from the class and u go n meet up the lecturer by urself and BEG the lecturer to give u marks? [wow, ur possibility of me is getting too OVER - i did attend n sit for the exam and y shud i beg for the marks or pass?]

(There is still lots of Q they ask, honestly i'm very very very dissapointed v the MORAL LECTURER as well as UTAR. U can c the way they handle things and try to cover up everything for their teachers n push everything to the student.)

MR NG : so, u still need to attend the class and we will further over investigation and give u the conclusion in 3 days time.

(I've ask MR NG izit the lost of mid term marks that cause me fail? he say YES!! Now they r considering whether to give me marks or not?)

Honestly , i'm very dissapointed v UTAR, it is so obvious that ur stuff did wrong but u all jus wanna drag my time and force me to attend class n exam for the 2nd time (is this a UTAR CULTURE?). I'm very sad too , cuz i trust the teacher so much, and now u need to protect urself and u twist n turn. CIK NORAZILAH BINTI BUHARI - u r a nice teacher to me , i respect u too but now i cant respect u anymore, u r telling lies without any hesitate and trust me, once u tell lies , u need a thousand lies to cover ur 1st lies. GOOD LUCK!!

I'm wondering, will i get a pass for my MORAL? NOP is the answer , i noe u all won't admit it anymore, push push push to others is the best rite!!! Because of this, no company will hire me as every wed i have to skip for work. ( MR TUAM ask cant the co pay me for one day unpaid leave? well, MR TUAM , if u r the boss will u hire a person which in the situation that i have now- skip every wed?) I have to run back and fort to kl to settle this CRAPS, i have wasted 3 months time and eveything. My mom have heart problem , my dad have high blood pressure, they r mad at me when they found out i fail and the lost of test marks. CAN u guys bear all the consequences that i'm facing right now? If something happens to my parents can u guys bear it?

* I felt sorry to my parents , need them to drive in n out kl to settle my stuff - i know is very tiring & i wanna thanks them for supporting me always *

I jus wan a normal n have my own life

I hate my life . im ad 23 , y shud I still under ur control? I have my own rights now rite , y ?? I juz dun understand. I’ve never enjoy my life for the past 23 years , I still b ur good gurl. I obey every single word of urs, I dun wanna let u worry or start a quarrel so I’ll automatically push all the dates. But, y dun u jus understand my feelings? I need to get some fresh air too. I’m fed up , my time will always b urs n those fucking ppl.

i dun enjoy fetching u all those fucking ppl for nothing ok . everday have to fetch 3 to 4 times per day to grab food and so on , u thought im ur fucking AH SEI r? If is for one or two weeks , i’m fine but this continue for 2 or 3 months ,used ur brain ok. U FUCKING SHYT!!

U all come twice a yr , each time u’ll stay for 2 to 3 month n this means , we gonna have a FUCKING hectic life for half a yr * 3 month + 3 month fetching u guys everyday none stop * , can u jus ask anyone , who can do this continuously for such a long time. U have to understand, u r on holiday but not us , we stil need to work n study.

U noe , ur FUCKING MONKEY son , pls watch out ur mouth , n pls do appreciate wat ppl have did for u. Dun keep condemn this n that- if u r that rich ,why dun u throw ur fucking $$ to the taxi n drove u ?? If u unable to that , pls ZIP up ur mouth!! Dun bullshit v me at here .

The worst part is , after we have done everything u request but u never appreciate it , u jus condemn n condemn. FUCK U!! I’m not born to serve u ok, how about I request everyday what u r requesting rite now n u do it for me? CAN U??

I barely have my own time to rest . This is y I dun like to stay here , I’m tired , really tired – honestly!! Pls let me go……………………..

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